Today was yet another test of strength for me. It was the day that I knew was coming and was dreading. With our decision to get a divorce, Kenny and I also felt is best that I get moved out quickly. We both didn't want things to happen that would essentially cloud our judgment. We know that splitting up IS the best decision for us and the girls also. That didn't make moving out any easier. Kenny helped move all the large stuff, and I was so grateful that he was so kind to do that. It was hard to give him that last "I love you" and a hug and kiss. I don't know, how do you say good bye to the person you have shared 16 years of your life with? I really can't imagine what is in store for my future, because I really always just imagined to be a wife and mother. I guess my destiny is something different. I am so excited for tomorrow evening, because it will be the girls' night with me here. I wonder if they will like their rooms, or if they will all just want to jump into my bed with me. I have missed them these last few days, and am looking forward to having them all next weekend. I need to think about something fun to do. Any ideas? Oh, do you see the look of peace on my face in this picture? That is what I am going to try to find again.
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Moving Out...
Today was yet another test of strength for me. It was the day that I knew was coming and was dreading. With our decision to get a divorce, Kenny and I also felt is best that I get moved out quickly. We both didn't want things to happen that would essentially cloud our judgment. We know that splitting up IS the best decision for us and the girls also. That didn't make moving out any easier. Kenny helped move all the large stuff, and I was so grateful that he was so kind to do that. It was hard to give him that last "I love you" and a hug and kiss. I don't know, how do you say good bye to the person you have shared 16 years of your life with? I really can't imagine what is in store for my future, because I really always just imagined to be a wife and mother. I guess my destiny is something different. I am so excited for tomorrow evening, because it will be the girls' night with me here. I wonder if they will like their rooms, or if they will all just want to jump into my bed with me. I have missed them these last few days, and am looking forward to having them all next weekend. I need to think about something fun to do. Any ideas? Oh, do you see the look of peace on my face in this picture? That is what I am going to try to find again.
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I can only imagine how hard this is for you, even if it is the right thing for you. ((((HUGS))))
Maybe tomorrow you could play some games, watch a princess movie and eat popcorn. :) You could have the girls draw, paint, or color some new pictures for the new place. :)
That is a Great picture of you. I am glad to read that you are looking forward to days ahead. That is a very good sign that, even though it will take time, you are going to be fine. I like Michelle's idea of having them make pictures to decorate their new spaces. Have someone take pics of you and the girls on your first weekend. It would be nice to have those pics in a frame for the next weekend visit. Have a great day with the girls!! :)
I hope that your "space" is comfortable and that you had a nice week-end with the girls. I am looking forward to seeing you again. I have missed you and I know the kids have too!
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