Heart Wrenching

Last night, Kenny and I did the hardest thing I think we have ever had to do. We sat down at the dinner table with our three beautiful girls, and told them that we were getting a divorce. I never in my life imagined that I would someday have to intentionally hurt my own children. I will never forget the look on Natasha's face when we told them. I am praying to God for the strength to help our girls get through this. Right now I need the help. My heart is broken, not only about Kenny and I getting a divorce, but also about the fact that the girls will be so hurt and confused for quite some time. Kenny and I are still working through this all together, and we are both very sure that we will be friends through this. We continue to focus on our children, and want to continue coparenting them. I think the only way to do that is by being friends. It is also quite emotional for me today, not only as I am packing up stuff, but also because I know this is my last night together with my husband. I can tell you, this would all be so much easier if only I didn't love him as much as I do.